from 10 a.m. to 10 f.m.

A woman gifted me my first watch. That day I learned to tell time. The next two watches I received also were gifts from women. The fist one I lost it, the second was stolen, the third I threw it away. Now I just watch the time in my cell phone and in the kitchen's watch, because the watch that wakes me up by the mornings it is out of sync with the time of the world.

Previously in EFFYMINE: The world is divided and multiplied. // We can add the existence of inner worlds absolutely unknow for the others // There's a woman, and her existence is unique // She has no name, let's call her Elizabeth // Do you like to be different? // the concepts, in contrast to the persons, are not divided between its existence and its representation // the love doesn't exist itself, it's something different for each person. // You are alone. // Elizabeth is not 10 years anymore.

Today, Episode nº5: The time. (From 10 a.m. to 10 f.m.)

The time doesn't exist, it is an invention for do not get lost, a silly invention because even with this invention it's inevitable to get lost. Elizabeth look at the watch and feels that she is believing a lie. The calendar lie too, she knows ti, even so she keeps believing. Today is her birthday, today isn't her birthday, today she has to do something, today she has nothing to do. Today is today since ever. Yesteday, tomorrow, today, nothing of that exist, they are concepts.

"Live the present" they recommend. "Think in the future" they recommend. "Leave the past" they recommend. "The time will do its part" they console.
Since when does Elizabeth exist? When will she stop existing?
Elizabeth, like any woman, is herself since ever, but the concept that she has about herself wasn't always the same. Or vice versa? Is it perhaps that she was never herself, that she still isn't, that her concept about herself is to much beautiful and she can't bear the distortion? She can't bear the idea of having defects: of being evil, stupid or wicked. She makes day by day a work of elections that answer to what she expects about herself to be who she represents. And she knows. She knows that the distortion will be always exist, even more if she must to compare herself with the concepts that the others have about her, but she struggles anyway, the same way that she knows the watch lies her and she hurries, because she's late.
How I said before: the inner worlds is always evolving, though not always to something different. Elizabeth - that knows the time does not exist - thinks: "it is time already." She thinks that she must it, she must do it, that it is time already. The she thinks that it is not, not now. Then she thinks that it is too late for that, or that she is not ready. Then why she looks the calendar?
Latter she thinks in the never. Did you think in that word? I think that it is a way to predict the death. If you say that you'll never fall in love of someone in special, it's a way to say that you know that you're gonna die before meet that kind of love. It's for that nonsense to say: I'll never die, and not so absurd to say the same sentence with another verb. Once that you are aware that you are alive, in the unconscious it is more probable to die that to change.
Elizabeth thought a lot about the Never. She looks at the clock, she knows that it lies, and she repeated: "It's time already".
She wakes up, lives and sleeps.

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