It happened a lot of things for that she can free herself, and many elements are not necessarily connected with her relation with him. The important thing is that she doesn't love him anymore, and that doesn't put her down. It is a relief, and a proud factor for her have loved him, even if that love has never been reciprocated.
(WARNING: this is the longest episode at the moment, it's because of this that I decided do not add the personal preface at the start, neither a previously)
THEORY OF THE DEPENDENCE
The plants grow, and their growth depends of external factors that impact in their internal system and make them flourish. The plants wait for the rain, wait for the sun... they are passive in their evolutionary process.
Many men and women are like plants. Elizabeth has been a plant all her life, until that after she survived droughts, floods and lived in hiding, being tread and despised, it came a day where she quits to be passive in this process, in wich she is active and asks the sun to come out when she needs it, to the clouds a little shadow when she wants it, and she also asks the rain to feed her when she feels hungry.
Do you imagine what's next, don't you? Neither the sun, nor the clouds, nor the rain, obeyed her. Why do they have to obey her? Is she the center of the world? What about her parents, her friends, the other? Aren't they plants too with differents needs? Don't they need as much as her everythings to work as they want to when they want to?
Asking isn't enough (but is better than do not ask for nothing).
"I grew up a lot this two years", she said to her father after that period of distance "but from now I want us to be in each other life." and she said it because she is a grown plant and she knows that she needs him to keep growing.
The father said YES, and hugged her tight.
"I am ready to move forward." she said to the doctor, who previously had explained to Elizabeth that he decides when go forward and not she. "I know, but I really know that this is the moment."
The doctor said YES, and wrote a prescription.
The nature is wise, they say.
I say that if a plant knows itself, it can grow no matter if the world moves at the same velocity of its needings. Because even if she wants something, and is denied, she continues growing up because she is not passive anymore, because she really is committed to her life, and nothing can stop her.
"When I said that I would go away, you kept silent.", she said to Mr H "Do you want to tell me something now?" and she asked because she needed an answer to understand how keep growing... if with or without him.
Mr H said NO, and added correct words.
So she didn't cry, she felt relief of stop have to waitting for him to love her. Because that is what Elizabeth most want this year: she doesn't want to live, to die, neither being love, she just want to keep growing.
Since this blog-show started on November, we had a woman divided, multiplied and distorted. Now whe are next to the end, and she stills a woman divided, multiplied and distorted, but (how I said at the beginning) the adventage of that this woman is alive, (secretly or not) is that with the advance of the a time (that may no exist), progress things more important in and out of her, and those things do exist. Elizabeth stills conditioned by external factors, but not in the passive way, because if the world doesn't move how she needs it, she isn't going to give up, she isn't going to kill herself, she will learn to be stroger, and she will try to understand what she can learn when the others say to her: NO.
2010 sounds a good year.
